In a very unusual way...

In a very unusual way one time I needed you.

In a very unusual way you were my friend.

Maybe it lasted a day, maybe it lasted an hour.

But somehow it will never end.

In a very unusual way I think I'm in love with you.

In a very unusual way I want to cry.

Something inside me goes weak.

Something inside me surrenders.

And your the reason why, your the reason why!

You don't know what you do to me.

You don't have a clue.

You can't tell what it's like to be me looking at you.

It scares me so that I can hardly speak...

In a very unusual way I owe what I am to you.

Though at times it appears I wont stay, I never go.

Special to me in my life, since the first day that I met you.

How could I ever forget you once you had touched my soul?

In a very unusual way you made me whole.

I can't get these lyrics out of my head lately. It seems that whenever I'm walking anywhere these words and someone always come to my mind. I didn't think I could miss someone as much as I do. I keep getting asked to come home and seriously I'm considering it, at least for a visit. There's something about this person that every morning I hope I get to say hello to them. Every day I hope to get a message. I know this is dorky but it makes me feel good. I'm so glad that I can feel this way.

The lyrics talk about a relationship that is difficult to describe and explain to other people. And that is how I feel right now. There's something about him that makes me feel amazing. I can't help but smile after I get done talking to him. There just seems to be a large part of me that feels beautiful and perfect when I get to be near him. And trust me I haven't felt like that in a very long time.

I know this post is probably pretty uninteresting to some people. "Ok. Sarah has a crush on a guy again. yay...." But for me this is big. I can't wait to see him again, to talk to him, to hug him. And he enjoys my dorkiness, I think sometimes even more then some of my best friends! lol.

I guess I just can't believe that I'm happy. And I have a feeling I'll be coming home for a visit sooner then I planned....